OMG I only have 42 days left to read the last two Harry Potter books! Woah! I gotta get cracking :O Don't get me wrong I'm like super excited for the movie (I saw the trailer in theaters and it was SICK!) but I want to read at least one of the books before having seen the movie for it. And seeing how the first half of the last book is coming out in theaters I GOTTA GET CRACKING! Those books are looooooong... :P
SO. Today is Thursday, day before we graduate. The day before we are officially finished with highschool. Never to go back. Never walk down those hallways as a student. It's weird, I'll admit it. As much as I thought about it throughout my high school career I almost felt as though it would never actually happen. Well, I mean I knew rationally it had to happen but...high school is supposed to be, like, the biggest thing that ever happens to you. It's where you make your lifelong friends (luckily I actually managed that one), where you find your first boyfriend, where you decide what career you want to go into. High school is just like on big, giant expectation for teens. Or something like that...
In any case tomorrow is going to suck. As excited as I am to see all my friends that I haven't seen since yearbook day, and to hear the band play Pomp and Circumstance for five minutes straight while we all file in, it is going to suck BALLS to repeat like a billion times that no, I'm not going to school this year and no, I don't have a job, and no, I don't plan on doing any traveling either. I can just picture the look on people's faces and imagine the heat spreading up my face as I repeat it for the tenth time (I blush...a lot). And yea, you know, I can tell myself "Whatever, Evie, don't let it get you down! You're doing your own thing this year! Who are they to judge you?" I'm still gonna feel judged and I'm definitely gonna blush...a lot. I so wanted to have spent the last two months working out when I wasn't working at some cool job like...wtvr doesn't even matter I could have worked anywhere as long as I was working somewhere I could make money and then I could tell all those judgmental people to shove it and that I was saving up to travel somewhere awesome and then watch them wallow in self pity as they realized they would be stuck indoors poring over their study notes while I was off somewhere foreign and awesome dancing the night away in some club beside some super hot guy.
Instead I spent most of the last two months having a quarter-life crisis, spending every day inside moving from the TV to a book, from one distraction to another and avoiding friends and family for fear they would find out you were such a failure at life. I really don't want to tell people where I'm at right now. My plan so far is to deflect and then ask them about their year. Hopefully I won't even need to because everyone will be all excited about their year so far they won't even ask! I can only hope :P
Anywho, let's brighten things up a little shall we? Art....art....I think art plays a pretty big part in my life, considering all the courses I chose for grade 12 were all English and film courses, minus personal fitness which doesn't count. I mean I love film and film is definitely art, I can't believe how much work goes into making a movie...it's crazy! I also love music and dance...ahh dance, now there's something I miss. So I'd say that without film, music or dance...my life would be empty. Art is what colours the world and fills it with magic! :D hahah how corny :P
Well, till tomorrow my friends!
Evie
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