Psychic

I totally had something to blog about, but of course I've left it until right now to blog and I've totally forgotten. So yeah moving on.
Life's slightly hectic at the moment, cause I'm wrapping up my FINAL WEEKS OF FIRST YEAR UNIVERSITY! WTF? I just started!!!! But anyways its kinda disconcerting cause I'm not over whelmed and I feel like I should be... hmm. Finished my bit for one final project, filming with Evie tomorrow for another final project, slightly started another one, and I have to read a chapter and study for an exam (all one class) yeah its manageable.
What else ... OH I REMEMBER NOW!
I am fucking psychic. Ok, so when my cousin told us she was pregnant I guessed she'd have a girl just cause well she has a boy. But then a few weeks later I saw her for the first time after knowing the news and well I got a vibe and felt that she was going to have a boy and today she announced that its going to be a boy! Ok this is now the third time this has happened (in my memory), with her other son, and with another cousin even though everyone was saying boy I felt a girl. I do realize I'm at a 50/50 chance but still! Oh and for the record the feeling was with out touching or any other wives tales or anything else like that.
Yeah another short blog! I'm honestly in a blogging rut, also there's other stuff I want to talk about but I want them to play there course/ grow more so I can write more... yeah.
Ok Friday question time. So as I said last week I applied to two places and I was going to apply to other places but failed at actually applying. So yeah I've applied to Michael's and Mastermind, oh and Camp. Camp's a guarantee as it has been for the past three years... or is it four. Cause this is my fourth summer as a councilor... I dunno what ever. Anyway that's been my only paying job thus far, but like I've said its different. To me its not a job, cause I've been going there so long. I do still get nervous for interviews, why I have no idea.
Ok I have to do some more stuffs for tomorrow.
Miah

P.S. I forgot to mention that my rule is that three times either proves or denies something, so yep I’m awesome (not that that needed proving)

Jobs Jobs Jobs

I just applied to Kitchen Stuff Plus! I have also applied to Starbucks, Mastermind (sort of), and Coffee Time (sort of).

This summer, I'm totally set on getting a "real" job. I know I could probably find something to do at Sick Kids, as I have in the past, but… I want retail experience! Or restaurant experience. Or something, I really don't care.

My resumé is kind of sucky, but what can you do, as a recent high school graduate and full time uni student? In my quest for independence, a job is a big deal. Financial independence! I mean I'll probably live at home next year, so that's -1 to independence, but we do what we can.

It's hard to think of getting a job during the summer when assignments loom large, and exams loom medium-sized. Ack! Ack!

Enough of the whining though… Here's to getting shit done! Here here! Huzzah!

-Lee

:)

Well I had a fun weekend. My Dad came to visit me here at school. We did a lot of nothing but it was nice just having him around.

I don’t have much else to say so straight to the question...

I have never had a part time job so my resume looks SO lame, at least I think it does. I have applied to a few jobs for this summer who knows if any of that will work out. I have never needed a job because my parents have always told me that school is my job and as for money I have never really needed it. I will keep you up to date with whatever happens on the job front!

Till next time,

Rae <3

Short and Sweet

I have nothing to blog about... I dunno having an anti-inspiration week.
Yeah!
I sold one shirt already to a friend, which is exciting so yeah.
Umm... what else?
I only have two more weeks of school, which is madness. How am I already finishing my first year?!?!!?!?!
Wow. This is a short blog. But honestly I have nothing to blog about, like at all.
So my question is... google searching hold on. NVM.
So based of how I spent my Wednesday how do you feel about getting a part time job? Ugh lame I know. Have you applied anywhere?
Ok. Short and sweet. (just like me! ha!)
Miah

Brrrr!

I'm back!
From lovely, lovely Florida. It was...you guessed it, lovely! I left last Sunday and just got back tonight, Friday (yea I missed blogging yesterday but hey! I was on vacay). I went with my dad and we stayed with my grandma near Fort Myers. Omg the weather was so beautiful. Leaving the frozen wasteland that is currently Toronto for a tropical beach in Florida is the best!! And of course grandparents always spoil you so we got to go out for dinner a lot and stuff. She even bought me my birthday present while we were there, yay shopping!
I think my favourite thing to do was go biking along the paths they had near the condo. They wind through big palm trees and other types of trees that I don't know the name of but are equally pretty and green, and circle around ponds where exotic birds hangout in plain view and a light breeze breaks the intensity of the hot sun. You can even ride down the street where all the millionaires live and ooh and aah at the ginormous mansions they built. It's just....perfect. My ideal morning or afternoon.
You may or may not know but they have alligators in Florida. I tell you this because I want this next sentence to receive the appreciative ooh it deserves and my cool-o-meter should definitely go up a few points for this. I went kayaking with my dad. In a canal. Where there was wildlife. Now I did not see an alligator with my own eyes but the family friend who let us borrow the kayaks said when she went the other day she heard one, apparently they grunt like pigs...weird i know :P But seriously, how BRAVE am I?? I know right? I'm like nature girl or something. I even saved a salamander later that day when he was stuck inside the screened in porch. Nature was my friend that day. Except I actually did freak out a little when we were in the kayak. I may have even wobbled the kayak at one point. Alright fine I screamed and yelled "OH MY GOD!!" because I thought there was an alligator beside the boat but it was a fish sunning itself. Wouldn't you freak out too if you had just heard there were alligators around and all of the sudden a big fish splashes some water like right beside you in the water? Yea. I was on the lookout for anything creepy like the whole time. Talk about high alert my friends, my eyes were peeled!
Anywho I should probably get to the Friday question right about now eh?
Respect. You know it's not a word I really like. My parents didn't really talk about it too much so the only place I really heard about it was from teachers who were always yelling for a little respect. So I sort of associate it with angry teachers that I don't like. To me it feels like this awful way of getting kids under control or something. Like it's a way of getting us to do whatever our elders want us to do. People are always saying we have to 'respect our elders' or whatever. It's got a lot of negative connotations in my mind so when I hear people saying so-and-so doesn't deserve my respect I feel angry. Why should I have to earn someone's respect? Why can't I just be and let other people decide if they like me. Except I've got this thing where I want everyone to like, so I guess I'll work on my end of that :P But maybe it's how I was exposed to the term. I don't like to use it, it feels too much like harsh judgment.
Hmm I must be getting sleepy my arguments are pretty shitty. I apologize for not arguing very well or being very clear. If you were inside my head it all makes sense :P I guess I'll just say I don't like the idea of respect so I don't refer to it myself, a personal choice, but I understand when other people use it and why so I don't judge anyone for it!
Seeya!
Evie

Perspective on Respect

OK, so what should I blog about today...

Well...

OK I know.

Jobs

Jobs, are scary and stupid... OK maybe not stupid but definitely scary. Especially "real jobs" (as camp people call the jobs in which you work, not at camp.) They're scary because you don't know what anything is going to be like, your bosses, you co-workers, how it runs, and what the storage room looks like. But today my friends I applied for two jobs, and I'm going to do a third after this blog. One process took a lot of effort, and well another one was just sending in a resume. But I did it, I applied for jobs, real jobs. Now I wait for a reply. And if I don't get a reply, then well... that's it for that particular place.

Hmm what else.

Oh speaking of Jobs I've opened a Design Store ME 2 U DESIGN which you can find at that link. So yeah, its really exciting cause I've been wanting to do this for a really long time and I finally found an online outlet that prints and distributes my shirts. Plus they pay me! So yeah hopefully down the road I'll get enough people buying shirts that I don't need to have a second job during the summer. Any who I'm currently designing a mother's day shirt. So look out for that!

Yeah work! Cause well lets face it, money makes the world go round!

OK so now for Respect, which you two took the only logical titles! Anyway. Respect is something I've been struggling with, especially with my family. I respect my parents, my brother, and all of my grand parents. But other then that I've pretty well lost a lot of respect for the rest of my family (with exceptions here and there that I'm not going to share) anyway yeah. That's my perspective on respect at the moment. That people have it right away but can loose it... yeah... uplifting I know.

Anywho gonna apply for more jobs now!

Yeah!

Miah

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

I apologize in advance for the short post, but I have a lot to do tonight.

First and foremost, I respect my dad. Like Rae, I respect many people! But my dad is the person who taught me about respect, and who is an amazing role model in many ways. He is disciplined, kind, wise, loving, and extremely knowledgeable, while remaining very modest. Like anyone, he has faults that make him him. I respect my dad because he exemplifies a self-control and self-moderation that I hope one day to achieve.

That's essay contest-winning stuff right there. :P

Soon I'm going to go to the study hall, more for the free hot chocolate than the actual study environment. Got a runny nose though so I hope people aren't annoyed with me!

See you guys later,

Lee

Respect:

–verb

1. to hold in esteem or honour: I cannot respect a cheat.

2. to show regard or consideration for: to respect someone's rights.

3. to refrain from intruding upon or interfering with: to respect a person's privacy.

Respect is a complicated thing. I legitimately can thing of five or less people that I don’t respect. I don’t respect them because they have done things not to earn my respect. I respect everyone until they give me a reason not to respect them. Everyone does have those days where you just have no interest in showing respect for people but 99% of the time I do my best to respect others and myself.

On a different note, I survived last week! :D

It was one of the hardest weeks of my whole life but I feel much stronger having survived it. It is an experience that I never need or want to repeat but I am proud to say that I did it.

Have a wonderful week!

Till next time,

Rae <3

Friday

But not actually Friday. Whatever!

Question of the day (whichever day it is):

Who do you respect? Why?

Small post for a question full of possibilities. :) See you later!

-Lee

Best tradition ever: The Cottage!

Traditions...hmmm.
I suppose in my house there's the typical traditions like celebrating birthdays as a family, Christmas every year, Easter (though that one is sort of fading a little, not nearly as exciting as it used to be :P), more recently going to Florida on the March Break to visit my Grandma - except that one isn't consistent and also I'm not in high school this year so we're not going on the March Break - and ohmygoodness of course we spend at least 2 weeks up at my cottage every summer. I love my cottage. Wow, okay reading that back I realize I sound like super spoiled, but I'm not snobby I swear...or at least, I don't think I am. Who knows? Maybe I'm like the biggest snob ever and I don't even know it.
In any case my favourite tradition is going to the cottage every summer. It's my favourite place and even if I'm in a horrible mood while I'm up there (which I have been in the past - you know, teen angst and all that) I always end up having fun at some point. And the past couple of years we've reconnected with a family my dad used to know and they have kids my age!! Hurrah! That was something that used to be sucky for me, being the youngest all the time by about 4 years. I'd always be begging friends to come up so I wouldn't be hanging out alone too much (not alone just alone with my parents - when you're an angsty teen you want anything but). You know I re-read one of my old journal entries and I was so angry at my parents, and I even wrote the entry at my cottage. I think I vaguely remember that year; avoiding my parents like crazy and refusing to hangout with my mom. Though I may have done that for a couple of years.
Well now I haven't made my cottage sound appealing at all! Let me try again:
I love my cottage! It's so welcoming every year, with big spacious rooms with wooden furniture and cushions that smell like...well, cottage. Then there's the beach. Ahh the beach. It's amazing, it's not sand, there's no sand at all, it's a huge slab of rock that's sort of uneven like steps made for a giant. And during the day the sun warms the rocks so when you come out of the water you can lay down on your towel and the rocks keep you warm. *sigh Lovely. Then there's the water. The beautiful, blue, crystal clear water. Yes the water makes things exciting. It's always cold, I mean the warmest it has gotten as far as my memory goes is 75˚F. Not super-awesome-warm. And that's a rare warm day when it reaches that high. But I don't care, it makes swimming at the cottage like a sport. Who's going in first? Who's gonna get pushed in? (Often it's me :P) But it just makes things so exciting! And in more recent years, because of the family we've reconnected with, we've been doing what we call the polar bear swim. We wait till after dinner when it's dark and then we swim out to the buoy (a floaty thing about 30 feet from shore to tie boats to) and back. *sigh, so much fun eh!?
Well that went much better. You all want to come to my cottage now don't you? :P I knew it!
I guess I enjoy traditions that make me happy but my family used to go to church and I did not like that at all so I hated that tradition. Whereas with things like my cottage and Christmas and birthday celebrations it can be so much fun!
Till next time
Evie :D

ps. hey this blog is an awesome tradition too!!

Reading and Camp

So... whats happened in the last week?
Well, my two best friends at camp both informed me that this summer they won't be returning this summer, which has put me in a kind of slump. Cause well I'm not the most social person ever, and its nice not having to worry about making friends. I do have friends at camp, but no one I am as close to as those two girls. I dunno just all of this camp stuff has made me think about not so social me. I did have a boy friend, over a year ago. And no I wasn't in love with him ever, I was... I dunno happy. I think its because of the confidence that comes with a relationship, the question of attractiveness and likability disappear, you have someone, you've found someone. So I as of late question if the crushes I have, are for boys whom I like or for the feeling I get from a relationship. Make sense?
It also doesn't help that I met my ex at camp, so I have some anxiety about his possibility of being back there again. Especially if I'm a councilor again and he's swim staff, cause with my luck one of my kids will be scared shitless to swim with him so I'll (being the motherly- according to Sloan- person that I am) offer to swim with them too. Only to be stuck being with his swim group for the rest of the freakin' summer. The good news is the other guy that I was worried about coming back, rumor has it is in no way returning! Yahoo!
So yeah... that's all that's been on my mind recently.
Oh wait except I have an AWKWARD story.
OK so Thursdays I have a really long break between classes. So last Thursday I hung out in the work area with a girl from one of my classes. And well a bunch of guys show up... one guy was from my Thursday afternoon class, and well I kinda flirted with him. But like I didn't mean too! I was biting my lip, and stuff and I guess it came across as being flirtatious cause that girl was going to text me something that she didn't want him to see. So yeah... 4 hours of me being an idiot. Oh, he may also be anti-Semitic so no way is there a future to this. (He willingly drew a swastika on a project... it was about himself in the section about Nazi zombies... yeah... I dunno.)
Anyways I'm not feeling very bloggy so gonna answer the tradition question.
As far as traditions go, the only ones (in my immediate family) I can think of are going out for dinner for someones birthday. It used to be that the birthday person got to pick, but now the others surprise them. Oh and the other tradition is our annual summer reading contest. We've been doing it for nearly 8 years. What we do is keep track of the number of pages as points, +10 points for completion of every book we read during the summer. It started as a way to get my brother and I reading and now is pretty serious. I've only ever won once, usually my mom wins. But even that tradition has changed, and probably will change this year too. Cause it changed when my brother went through a series during March Break, and as a way to encourage the reading my parents started the contest in March. It also changed from its original form, when we only counted books, since my brother and I had books that average 100 pages we would finish twice as many books as my parents. This year I suspect it'll change because I'm in University and my summer starts mid April. So yeah. I have traditions, but they are constantly changing and morphing as my brother and I grow. I guess even camp is a tradition, I mean it will be my 10th summer.
OK thats it.
Miah

Beware the Ides of March!

Check me out: plaid and stripes!

And blogging in the morning!

Ok Sweet Baby Ra[e], on to… traditionnn! Tradition!

I thought about this while blowing my nose this morning, and in that fifteen minutes I could only think of one tiny tradition. Just one, and I suspect it's because my parents aren't much into ritual or doing things for the sake of doing them consistently. My mom, for example, is wildly spontaneous, and that's the way she likes it.

The only tradition I can think of is one that I sort of messed up on this year. Every year on November 29, I watch The Concert for George, which is a DVD chronicling the charity concert made to honour George Harrison on the first anniversary of his death (Nov 29). This year I clean forgot, and the DVD was at home anyway. Oops!

I'm off to breakfast now, so I'll see you on Friday!

-Lee

Random thoughts in my brain!

Traditions are some of my favourite things. I love knowing what is going to happen, I have traditions for lots of things such as on the last day of school my dad ALWAYS picks us (me and my brother) from school and plays “school’s out for summer” and we blast it way too loud and yell the words at the top of our lungs! Friday I mentioned March Break and Christmas. Enough about that, I spoke a lot about that on Friday.

Roll up the rim in back at Tim Horton’s and we have one on campus, in about a week I have won three free coffees! and two of them were back-to-back days! Maybe that is just a Canadian excitement thing but I love it!

Technology is a very cool thing, I have a BlackBerry and today while trying to figure out a group presentation I realised that two of the three other people have them too so now on my phone I have a BBM group for my presentation group, how cool is that?!?! I think it is pretty cool!

I love that now (after we changed the clocks) at 7 the sun is just setting!

I need to go take a shower now so yah, look forward to seeing what you ladies have to say.

Till next time,

Rae <3

p.s. uggg, why did YouTube make me get a Google account! Now when I go to post my blogs I have to sign out of YouTube sign into the blog then re-sign into YouTube!!! uggg!

Only time will tell...

Well, today is a day that I have been dreading for a while now. Not because I had a math test this morning (which I think I did very well on btw) but because it is the start of Public School March Break in Ontario. Every year (except 1999) since 1998 I have gone a family vacation for March Break. I know how fortunate that makes me, and yes this might make me sound like a brat but I wish I was going. I say this not simply because I wanted to go on vacation but because I am a person who loves traditions. I am not a traditional person but a person who loves traditions such as for Christmas every year since I can remember my neighbours (who are like my other parents) come over and we have dinner and exchange gifts. A few years ago they went on a trip over Christmas/ New Years needless to say I was devastated! I probably cried for like a week because I knew that they would not be there. This has been our thing for more than half my life. Every March there was the 10 Adventures with our cheesy matching shirts – from oldest to youngest – Grandpa, Grandma, Uncle M, Dad, Aunt J, Mom, Cousin E, Cousin L, Me and my Brother. Right now as I write this eight of them are at the airport all but me and cousin L we can’t go because of school. It kills me because I want to be there. I feel compelled to be there. A part of me is missing, my family trip is gone. My traditions are fading away and it is killing me, last summer because of our complicated lives my immediate family did not go on a vacation together. That too was a first in what seems like forever and it looks like the same will happen this summer. To top off this week my roommate is on her reading week. So I am alone. No roommate, no skype calls with my Dad nothing. I don’t know how it will go. I have spent plenty of time without contact with my family like when we went to France or when I went to sleepover summer camp but that has always been me leaving them behind to do something now they are leaving me behind. I don’t know how it will go.

This week’s question: Do you feel the same way I do about traditions? Does your family have any traditions?

Till next time,

Rae <3

A blog about Women

Hey! So funny story, on Tuesday, as mentioned by both Lee and Miah, it was International Women's Day. Very exciting. But the funny part is I started reading this book called Reviving Ophelia, which just happens to be all about adolescent girls and what a hard time we have growing up because of cultural messages and such. Very interesting and what an awesome coincidence! Or was it a coincidence? You decide :P
Anywho, I'm super interested in this book and now I wanna know like everything about everyone's experiences in middle and high school :P I think the book is spot on about a lot of things. I can relate to the feeling of getting mixed messages, like we're supposed to be obedient and dutiful but think for ourselves and be independant, or we're supposed to be sexy but not sexual (like not a slut). It's hard being a girl! I would definitely recommend this book to any female of any age. It talks about parents and stuff too. A little dense but hey, it wouldn't be that interesting if it wasn't dense too! It packs a lotta info into one book.
Right well, I watched V for Vendetta last night with my dad and my sister and I sort of realized that the whole *SPOILER ALERT* her being tortured by her friend is actually really messed up. It's weird because the first time I saw it I was all like 'wow she's so strong now! She's not afraid of anything or anyone!' and I was all impressed. But now I feel like I have a different perspective and I think it's absolutely horrible that he would torture her. Talk about freaking post traumatic stress. She would have to live with those awful experiences for the rest of her life. In the movie I got the impression that she was over it in like 10 minutes. Granted it was a very emotional 10 minutes and I think she had a few epiphanies but you can't just work through months of traumatic torture and isolation in one big cry that doesn't even last that long. I'VE cried for longer than that about smaller stuff. Hah, sorry for the rant if you weren't interested :P I've been thinking about it and how it bothered me a little. I will say though that I really like that movie, I enjoy it every time I see it. I think it's really well done and I love the acting, especially Natalie Portman. In fact this is the first time I saw it and anything bothered me! And I do like how strong she is by the end. She's all cool and calm and collected :)
*END OF SPOILERS*
Moving on, to my Friday question from last week. You know now that I have a list of things in my head that I wanted to accomplish in a bar. Some other things that I have lists of in my head are places I want to travel someday (Italy, Greece, England *check, France *check x4, Australia, Asia, annnnnnnd probably some others I can't think of), random experiences I want to have (like some of the bar things I had in my last blog, also things like going to a fancy party and dressing up for it, kiss someone at New Years, be involved somehow in a legit movie or TV show - a long shot I know - and some more I can't remember) and movies I wanna see (most recommended to me). The thing is whenever I try to write down a list I always lose interest. Like I wrote a list of movies to see and like added stuff fairly often, I even crossed a few off but then it got moved from the fridge where I had put it and I forgot about it for like a year and by then I wasn't really interested anymore. So now I mostly keep them in my head and I figure if it's something really important I wanted to do or see then I'll remember it eventually :P
Thanks for reading!
Evie :D