Ugh yesterday I made one of my favourite meals for dinner and there was a lot of garlic in it. Anyway I'm still digesting it. Which sucks. But I'm getting and feeling better as the moments go on so alls good.
Anyway right now I'm just waiting to start stuff and other then that struggling with missing camp. Right now all of my friends are at pre camp (when the staff get trained) and well even though its supper boring and dull I'd much rather be there right now. Its really for me the hardest thing, not being at camp. For many reasons, I was so looking forward to it because well it was supposed to be my 10th summer, I got a promotion, and well last year I was so confident that I knew that this year would be awesome too. I dunno. Camp is something I look forward to all year, and having it just taken away has been hard.
I think the reason that I do like camp so much is that I am a very motherly person by nature, like I've always looked out for people younger then me. Which could do with the fact that I am an older sister, that it may just be that way. Like I have to look out for my younger brother, but the thing is that I don't have to. I want too. Especially now that he's working at camp and all the crap I've been going through. I just don't want people harassing him. But that being said my brother and I are really close, we've always been close. I mean as close as a brother/ sister relationship can be. Like walking down the street we usually play with each others hands, and well now sometimes he even helps me walk. So I think siblings are a good thing and having one is awesome! Even the moments when I do want to kill him. I dunno its just nice knowing that there's someone out there who I can just hang out with. Like it was my brother's idea to watch the Godfather trilogy so I can cross them off my Oscar List. But like those movies aren't ones I want to watch by myself. So he chose to watch them with me. But then I think siblings relationships really rely on their own dynamic. Cause many of my cousins hate/ hated (but have grown closer) their siblings. Anyway the whole is it best to be the oldest shiz, I think there are moments when my parents freak about certain things because I am the oldest. But I think there's also the issue that I'm female, so at night my parents are really nervous. I personally blame their love of Law and Order. So I dunno. But its not like my parents pressure me to do things at a certain time, like they kinda gave up on making me get my drivers licence... and well getting a second job isn't cause of my age but because I need the cash. (Due to recent events they have also stopped with that.) So yeah... I dunno. I think I explained my views on being an elder sibling. I mean it would be nice to be younger or middle just to have the advice and stuff, but I have older cousins who do that for me. So I don't feel like I'm missing out.
Yeah long blog!
Miah
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
BLURGH
If I had to forget to do something today, better that I forget to blog than, say, forget to feed my frogs. (Actually I have a special word for that: frogetting. Ha hahahaha haha ha.)
It's 3:30 am and I feel… I dunno. I can't get to bed, but it's not because I don't want to. Does that make sense?
Evie, I like being the youngest. There's like zero pressure; the kind of pressure that my oldest brother had on him all the time. Pressure to do well in school, to get a job, to be responsible. Though I think gender has something to do with that as well. Tween and teen boys have the reputation of being a bit crazy, so perhaps my older brothers needed some tough love that my sister and I never needed.
My dad's advice: have boys first. (Not that you have much of a say in the matter unless you're adopting!)
I can safely say that I have learned from my siblings' mistakes, and benefitted from their advice greatly. A luxury I would not have if I were the oldest! I suppose being a middle child wouldn't be that bad either. IMO, too much pressure if one is the oldest. So I'm especially interested in what Rae and Miah have to say, as big sisters!
Bye bye,
Lee
Monday, June 27, 2011
Too much thinking...
I’ve been spending a lot of time recently inside my own head, which is never a good thing... at least for me. When I think too much about things I overanalyse them and get myself confused about whatever the thing is. I have been thinking a lot about my future. I have been thinking long term like mainly what job/career I want to have. For me it is very complicated thing that I just can’t figure out. I know that I want to work with children, it I would dare to say is my biggest passion and all I want to do with my life. The problem is that in saying that there are just so many ways one can go with the statement ‘working with children’. Every option has a good and a bad to it but it is a matter of deciding which goods are good enough and which bads are the worst. Still more thinking to be done on this subject...
Evie I LOVE this question! Now let me say that I took many a class in sociology and psychology that I k now the technical answer but I will speak from experience. I think that this concept needs to be broken down further. I think it all depends on how many children there are in the first place. If there is one, two, three, four ect. then you get people reacting differently. As then oldest myself (of two) I feel like I have to be the leader, show a good example for my brother and such but I think that as the oldest of two my parents are much harder on me then my brother and that he gets away with much more than I ever could get away with. Being a child is a hard thing for everyone and is different for everyone but all in all I enjoy being the older one rather than then younger one. I look forward to your answers.
Till next time,
Rae <3
Evie I LOVE this question! Now let me say that I took many a class in sociology and psychology that I k now the technical answer but I will speak from experience. I think that this concept needs to be broken down further. I think it all depends on how many children there are in the first place. If there is one, two, three, four ect. then you get people reacting differently. As then oldest myself (of two) I feel like I have to be the leader, show a good example for my brother and such but I think that as the oldest of two my parents are much harder on me then my brother and that he gets away with much more than I ever could get away with. Being a child is a hard thing for everyone and is different for everyone but all in all I enjoy being the older one rather than then younger one. I look forward to your answers.
Till next time,
Rae <3
Friday, June 24, 2011
You know I'm really not that good with numbers....
Hello all!
It's Friday today and that means it's time for the Friday Question! (estion...estion)
Honestly I have no idea yet what the question will be so I think I'll just write about some stuff and I'm sure it will come to me.
So last night was fun! My aunt came over with two of my younger cousins, one of them is three and the other one is....8? 9? She's going into grade four in any case. They are both so adorable, yay for babies :) It's kinda weird actually seeing the younger one because she sort of reminds me of myself when I was her age. She's the youngest of three and I was too...am too. 'Cept now I can sorta keep up (most of the time) with my siblings. Or maybe it's more like the older you get the smaller the age difference seems...maybe. Though I don't know, my sister IS 6 whole years older than me. That's a big gap lemme tell you. That means when I was born my sister was already in grade 2, and when I was graduating elementary school she was already at the end of high school! (You notice how vague I'm being with the grades and ages and stuff? Yea I'm horrible with guessing ages and knowing how old I was in what grade..... :P)
Anywho the point is I really related to my youngest cousin because I can remember being in her exact situation and how it felt being mostly ignored and stuff....just saying.
Well that gives me an idea for the Friday Question: What do you guys think of siblings? What do you think it means being the oldest or the youngest or the middle child?
That's an interesting question isn't it? Well you'll read my answer next week, till then!
Evie :)
It's Friday today and that means it's time for the Friday Question! (estion...estion)
Honestly I have no idea yet what the question will be so I think I'll just write about some stuff and I'm sure it will come to me.
So last night was fun! My aunt came over with two of my younger cousins, one of them is three and the other one is....8? 9? She's going into grade four in any case. They are both so adorable, yay for babies :) It's kinda weird actually seeing the younger one because she sort of reminds me of myself when I was her age. She's the youngest of three and I was too...am too. 'Cept now I can sorta keep up (most of the time) with my siblings. Or maybe it's more like the older you get the smaller the age difference seems...maybe. Though I don't know, my sister IS 6 whole years older than me. That's a big gap lemme tell you. That means when I was born my sister was already in grade 2, and when I was graduating elementary school she was already at the end of high school! (You notice how vague I'm being with the grades and ages and stuff? Yea I'm horrible with guessing ages and knowing how old I was in what grade..... :P)
Anywho the point is I really related to my youngest cousin because I can remember being in her exact situation and how it felt being mostly ignored and stuff....just saying.
Well that gives me an idea for the Friday Question: What do you guys think of siblings? What do you think it means being the oldest or the youngest or the middle child?
That's an interesting question isn't it? Well you'll read my answer next week, till then!
Evie :)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Yay for self-discovery!....if you're into that
A year. An entire year went by. I suppose it feels like it's been a while since I was in school. In fact it sorta feels like I've been living the way I have this year forever.
This year has been the biggest change in my life. It was the first year in my memory that I wasn't going to school at all or had any dance classes. I had no obligations, no responsibility and no structure. At times, when I'm feeling not so good, I get anxious and I feel guilty thinking that I wasted my year, a whole year of my life gone and I didn't do one productive thing with it. Look at me, I gained weight, I stopped dancing, I stopped going to school, I didn't have any sort of income from a job and I almost stopped going outside for a while. I would spend entire days inside just reading or watching TV or playing the piano. I spent hundreds, maybe even thousands of dollars of my parents money on therapy and I'm still an anxious wreck who can't even get a job. I've barely changed at all. But then I remember the therapy sessions when I came out feeling genuinely happy even euphoric, I remember all the fun I had with you guys and our other friends just hanging out or making spontaneous plans (something I rarely did before this year - too stressful), and I realize how much healthier I am emotionally this year. I needed this time, I still do. When I was still in school I used to wake up every morning feeling like crying. Now when I wake up, yeah sometimes it's a little scary not having anything to do, but at least I know if I'm having a bad day I can talk to someone about it and I don't have to go to school because I knew I couldn't handle another whole year of stress and anxiety and depression again.
I've sort of come to realize that this emotional journey or whatever you want to call it that I'm going through is never 'over', it's like this ongoing process of finding out what I like and what I want out of life. It's about me. As selfish as that sounds (you know being selfish can be healthy sometimes :P), it's all about me. Really it's amazing how much better I feel now than even a couple of months ago. I know it's hard for anyone else to understand exactly how big the difference is, you'd have to be in my skin, but I really want to trust myself and the feeling I have that this year was worth it. That finding more of myself, uncovering these opinions I didn't even know I had, and trying to let myself feel more was right for me. Who would know better than me? No one else lived this year for me, only I can say if it worked for me.....and I say it did.
So yea, a whole year of self-discovery, therapy, time with my family, hanging out with friends and lots of time with just me (which could be a little disconcerting at times :P). What a year.
I'm glad it happened and that I was able to share some of it with you guys!
As for the future, I'm not really sure what I want to do. I think all that I can handle right now is...well, what happens right now. I have dreams - going to university, getting a job someday, and if we're thinking big doing some writing or working in film somehow - but trying to figure out what I want to do just in the next few weeks or days feels like a lot so, I think I'll stick with that for now :P
See ya next week!
Evie :)
This year has been the biggest change in my life. It was the first year in my memory that I wasn't going to school at all or had any dance classes. I had no obligations, no responsibility and no structure. At times, when I'm feeling not so good, I get anxious and I feel guilty thinking that I wasted my year, a whole year of my life gone and I didn't do one productive thing with it. Look at me, I gained weight, I stopped dancing, I stopped going to school, I didn't have any sort of income from a job and I almost stopped going outside for a while. I would spend entire days inside just reading or watching TV or playing the piano. I spent hundreds, maybe even thousands of dollars of my parents money on therapy and I'm still an anxious wreck who can't even get a job. I've barely changed at all. But then I remember the therapy sessions when I came out feeling genuinely happy even euphoric, I remember all the fun I had with you guys and our other friends just hanging out or making spontaneous plans (something I rarely did before this year - too stressful), and I realize how much healthier I am emotionally this year. I needed this time, I still do. When I was still in school I used to wake up every morning feeling like crying. Now when I wake up, yeah sometimes it's a little scary not having anything to do, but at least I know if I'm having a bad day I can talk to someone about it and I don't have to go to school because I knew I couldn't handle another whole year of stress and anxiety and depression again.
I've sort of come to realize that this emotional journey or whatever you want to call it that I'm going through is never 'over', it's like this ongoing process of finding out what I like and what I want out of life. It's about me. As selfish as that sounds (you know being selfish can be healthy sometimes :P), it's all about me. Really it's amazing how much better I feel now than even a couple of months ago. I know it's hard for anyone else to understand exactly how big the difference is, you'd have to be in my skin, but I really want to trust myself and the feeling I have that this year was worth it. That finding more of myself, uncovering these opinions I didn't even know I had, and trying to let myself feel more was right for me. Who would know better than me? No one else lived this year for me, only I can say if it worked for me.....and I say it did.
So yea, a whole year of self-discovery, therapy, time with my family, hanging out with friends and lots of time with just me (which could be a little disconcerting at times :P). What a year.
I'm glad it happened and that I was able to share some of it with you guys!
As for the future, I'm not really sure what I want to do. I think all that I can handle right now is...well, what happens right now. I have dreams - going to university, getting a job someday, and if we're thinking big doing some writing or working in film somehow - but trying to figure out what I want to do just in the next few weeks or days feels like a lot so, I think I'll stick with that for now :P
See ya next week!
Evie :)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
What A Year
I've been watching way to much television as of late, and not even good television. But its kinda the only thing I can do right now, going for a few hours out exausts me... Even showering as of late is something I'm having a hard time doing. Like today I was planning on just getting my bangs cut, but showering tired me so much that I had to get my hair washed by my hairdresser too. Anyway enough about my issues.
I can't believe its been a year! And what a year I've had. I had a fantastic summer, and especially at camp (uch camp, gonna miss it) I felt so confident and comfortable with everything that was going on in my life. I started at the University of my dreams, nearly killed myself the first semester and well lost a lot of confidence in my ablities in design and art. But by January I had to remind myself that design is my life, that creating things visually how ever I want is what I breath and live for. Went through a lot of depressing moments missing my grandmother in February, not to mention dealing with the changed dynamic of my extended family. I finished my first year of Uni, which is amazing. Especially if you know the stress and drop out rate that my program has, like one teacher said its all about survival not grades at my school. I lived so many dreams, meeting Daniel Radcliffe and traveling to New York by myself (ie with out family) were probably the biggest ones of the year. And then... crash boom bang! Cancer, which... well we shall see how it goes.
Sorry I had to pee.
Anyway what I look forward to in the future is living more of my dreams. Getting married, having kids (whether or not bilogical), traveling all over Europe, Israel, and Australia. Most important to me really is being a mom one day, its something I've always wanted. I dunno maybe its because there has rarely been a year in my life where a baby wasn't being born, so maybe its just my surroundings. People have told me I have a very motherly attitude and I do love kids so its something that I do constantly dream of. Idealistcially there'd be a husband to in that picture of a family, but as of now my life is out of order, so if it doesn't happen "normally" (what ever that means) I guess that'd be fine. On that note I've realized my "Hi I'm Miah and I had cancer when I was 19, and oh I might not be able to have kids" line is a really good tester of men. Like if they freak obviously they're not right at all. Really though for my future I want to live as many dreams as possible. But if there's one thing I've learned dreams need to be made. You can't just hope for your dreams to come true, you've got to make them happen.
Ok. I'm tired now... blogging can do that to a person.
Here's to another year!
Miah
P.S. 23 DAYS!!! OMG!
I can't believe its been a year! And what a year I've had. I had a fantastic summer, and especially at camp (uch camp, gonna miss it) I felt so confident and comfortable with everything that was going on in my life. I started at the University of my dreams, nearly killed myself the first semester and well lost a lot of confidence in my ablities in design and art. But by January I had to remind myself that design is my life, that creating things visually how ever I want is what I breath and live for. Went through a lot of depressing moments missing my grandmother in February, not to mention dealing with the changed dynamic of my extended family. I finished my first year of Uni, which is amazing. Especially if you know the stress and drop out rate that my program has, like one teacher said its all about survival not grades at my school. I lived so many dreams, meeting Daniel Radcliffe and traveling to New York by myself (ie with out family) were probably the biggest ones of the year. And then... crash boom bang! Cancer, which... well we shall see how it goes.
Sorry I had to pee.
Anyway what I look forward to in the future is living more of my dreams. Getting married, having kids (whether or not bilogical), traveling all over Europe, Israel, and Australia. Most important to me really is being a mom one day, its something I've always wanted. I dunno maybe its because there has rarely been a year in my life where a baby wasn't being born, so maybe its just my surroundings. People have told me I have a very motherly attitude and I do love kids so its something that I do constantly dream of. Idealistcially there'd be a husband to in that picture of a family, but as of now my life is out of order, so if it doesn't happen "normally" (what ever that means) I guess that'd be fine. On that note I've realized my "Hi I'm Miah and I had cancer when I was 19, and oh I might not be able to have kids" line is a really good tester of men. Like if they freak obviously they're not right at all. Really though for my future I want to live as many dreams as possible. But if there's one thing I've learned dreams need to be made. You can't just hope for your dreams to come true, you've got to make them happen.
Ok. I'm tired now... blogging can do that to a person.
Here's to another year!
Miah
P.S. 23 DAYS!!! OMG!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
One year later
About a year ago, I started blogging as Lee, in an internet café in Paris. At that time, I was on the cusp of many new experiences. (My first year of university springs to mind!) But at the time, I wasn't really thinking of the future. I – and Evie and Sloan – had just begun our two-week adventure, and to think ahead would be to anticipate the end of our awesome trip.
But the future came about anyway. With it ended our Eurotrip, began August, then ended August, and led to… university! Living in residence, taking crazy courses all over campus, spending a tonne of money, meeting new people, studying, not studying, traveling back and forth to a not-so-nearby university… Lots of stuff to experience!
And I think that those experiences changed me, as all experiences do, at least a little. I regret dropping Tae Kwon Do between last year and this year, though that was hardly avoidable. And I regret stopping my french studies. But I think that I am less shy, more ready to talk to strangers I meet. And I have a better idea of what interests me, and of what studies I want to pursue further. If I got a bit lazier, it's only because I had so much more work to do!
As for what I can't wait for, in the future… well I don't really know. My own family – that's a hard concept to wrap my head around – is something I look forward to very much. And settling down in a job I like; I hope I can manage to do that. Other than that… I guess it's like the Eurotrip. I am so busy doing what I'm doing, I don't really have the time or the need to look forward into the future! I will find out what it holds, day by day, and try to make it a happy one for me and for the people I love.
-Lee
Monday, June 20, 2011
1 year.
It is hard to imagine that it has been a year of doing this! One year of waking up on Monday and thinking “I must remember my day! I have to blog about it later!!!”, one year of discussions with my friends, one year of sharing part of my life with the internet. A lot has happened this year for me. I ‘moved out’ (kinda, I’m back for the summer) but I managed to live pretty much alone for 8 months, I had to do my own grocery shopping, I was the one who said “Rae, it’s late go to bed!”. I was the master of my own time, it was a hard thing to do but I did get the hang of it... eventually. I lost people, I meet new people, I lived my life my way. It is amazing to think back on what/ who I was one year ago. I feel like I can call myself an adult now, I feel as though I have earned that right. There is just so much that happened this year that I can’t even start to list it all but despite all the bad and good times I would not change any of it because then I would not be who I am. Miah as to your question of the future... in my future I hope to see all of you there with me, I hope to visit all the places I have dreamed of going, I hope to be successful in anything and everything I do, I hope to find a love that will last forever, I hope to grow very old and see what the next generations do, I hope to not worry about money, I hope to bring happiness to other people but mostly I hope to live the life I want and not the life someone else wants for me. The future is a scary thing for most people, myself included, but I am excited to see what the future truly holds. This year has been life changing and I know that the future is unpredictable and will be crazy but I think I’m ready for it.
Till next time,
Rae <3
Till next time,
Rae <3
Friday, June 17, 2011
Future
Ach Evie, I told you already, but that song made me cry! Which is something I've become as of late, really emotional. Like little things make me cry all the time, but I guess in this circumstance its normal. As you've probably already guessed I've been thinking a lot about life and the future, like I've been promising myself things to do this time next year, but at the same time to make plans right now its a day by day thing. My whole outlook on life has completely changed. Like I'm regretting now not learning how to drive at 16, because now my insurance will probably be through the roof when I do get my license. Basically I've been spending my whole life thinking I have forever to do something, but now I'm realizing I actually don't. Like traveling the world, seeing shows in theatre, reaching my dreams. It all needs to be done as soon as possible. I've even been thinking about the possibility of my having my own biological children. They say that my eggs will be so destroyed by the chemo that it may not be possible, but I've told my self adoption is fine. I've even been thinking about my future husband, can you imagine the intro conversation. "Hey I'm Miah, I had cancer when I was 19, oh and I can't have kids cause of it."
Anyways my future is what I'm scared of loosing. Not the battle, not the chemo, not the radiation, or uch the needles, but how my life will be different. How I won't have a normal life after any of this. But at least I'll have a life, and live until its my time to go, when I'm old and grey and wrinkly. But at the same time, my future will be a blessing. I already know my wedding will be the biggest and bestest party out of all of my cousins, the birth of my children will be the greatest miracles ever. Even my upcoming 20th birthday (my champagne birthday non the less) will be huge. So that's what I'm fighting for, my future. Because I am in no way ready to go, I've got my future to live for.
Which brings me to my Friday question, whats something in your future you can't wait for? I won't suggest anything cause I don't want to tarnish your idea. Just whats something you really want to happen?
OK. I need to sleep.
Night!
Miah
Anyways my future is what I'm scared of loosing. Not the battle, not the chemo, not the radiation, or uch the needles, but how my life will be different. How I won't have a normal life after any of this. But at least I'll have a life, and live until its my time to go, when I'm old and grey and wrinkly. But at the same time, my future will be a blessing. I already know my wedding will be the biggest and bestest party out of all of my cousins, the birth of my children will be the greatest miracles ever. Even my upcoming 20th birthday (my champagne birthday non the less) will be huge. So that's what I'm fighting for, my future. Because I am in no way ready to go, I've got my future to live for.
Which brings me to my Friday question, whats something in your future you can't wait for? I won't suggest anything cause I don't want to tarnish your idea. Just whats something you really want to happen?
OK. I need to sleep.
Night!
Miah
Thursday, June 16, 2011
I think I speak for all of us when I say, I love you Miah
I want to start off this blog by saying I love you Miah. I am so sorry this is happening and I am here to support you or help you if I can. I want to be someone you can talk to, sort of like the question this week, I want to be here to listen for you if you ever need it. I think this song conveys what I'm trying to say pretty well. Have you listened to it yet? Moral of the story: I'm here for you Miah.
As for the question this week, it's sort of on the same page. I would say that I tell my therapist a WHOLE lot, obviously. I mean I'm paying her to listen to me so it makes sense that I would tell her the most. Though I don't necessarily tell her everything...sometimes I can't remember everything I meant to tell her, a lot can happen in a week. I also tell my mom a lot and my brother. Though he's not around as much because of school and his girlfriend, so I used to tell him what felt like some of my most intimate stuff. He just accepts me so simply. Anything I have to say, even if what I'm feeling may seem wrong or bad to other people he just keeps telling me that it makes sense to him that I would feel that way. I love that. I also tell you guys a lot. I'd like to think that most of my friendships have grown over the past year and that I keep pretty open relationships with people. I feel like I used to keep my feelings and thoughts more to myself than I do these days. I find now that I really like having thoughts to share with my friends and I find it interesting to hear what other people have to say. Acceptance can be so interesting!
So I suppose my answer was pretty similar to you three. I have a lot to say and I tell my friends about it, my family and my therapist :)
You know I'm really glad I have you guys because I do tell you so much and because you didn't abandon me when I was so sure you would all go on to University and College and forget about me. So thanks for wanting to still be my friends!!
Well I think that's it for now...wait, lemme just mention this movie because I watched it the other day and I really liked it and totally thought it was interesting too. It's called Arabian Nights and it's not animated (everyone I've talked to about it asks me that :P). It's basically about this crazy sultan who's first wife tried to kill him and marry his brother so he goes kind of crazy and decides, because he has to re-marry, that he's going to have his new wife killed the day after their wedding so that she can't kill him first (did I mention that he was crazy?). Anyway this woman, hearing about his plan decides to marry him, thinking that she can help him and that she'll stay alive by telling him stories that are so gripping that he'll keep putting off her death another night just to hear the rest of it. I really like the idea for it, eh? Yay movies set in the middle east! Anywho, try it if you like chick flicks and adventure stories :)
Till next week!
Evie :D
As for the question this week, it's sort of on the same page. I would say that I tell my therapist a WHOLE lot, obviously. I mean I'm paying her to listen to me so it makes sense that I would tell her the most. Though I don't necessarily tell her everything...sometimes I can't remember everything I meant to tell her, a lot can happen in a week. I also tell my mom a lot and my brother. Though he's not around as much because of school and his girlfriend, so I used to tell him what felt like some of my most intimate stuff. He just accepts me so simply. Anything I have to say, even if what I'm feeling may seem wrong or bad to other people he just keeps telling me that it makes sense to him that I would feel that way. I love that. I also tell you guys a lot. I'd like to think that most of my friendships have grown over the past year and that I keep pretty open relationships with people. I feel like I used to keep my feelings and thoughts more to myself than I do these days. I find now that I really like having thoughts to share with my friends and I find it interesting to hear what other people have to say. Acceptance can be so interesting!
So I suppose my answer was pretty similar to you three. I have a lot to say and I tell my friends about it, my family and my therapist :)
You know I'm really glad I have you guys because I do tell you so much and because you didn't abandon me when I was so sure you would all go on to University and College and forget about me. So thanks for wanting to still be my friends!!
Well I think that's it for now...wait, lemme just mention this movie because I watched it the other day and I really liked it and totally thought it was interesting too. It's called Arabian Nights and it's not animated (everyone I've talked to about it asks me that :P). It's basically about this crazy sultan who's first wife tried to kill him and marry his brother so he goes kind of crazy and decides, because he has to re-marry, that he's going to have his new wife killed the day after their wedding so that she can't kill him first (did I mention that he was crazy?). Anyway this woman, hearing about his plan decides to marry him, thinking that she can help him and that she'll stay alive by telling him stories that are so gripping that he'll keep putting off her death another night just to hear the rest of it. I really like the idea for it, eh? Yay movies set in the middle east! Anywho, try it if you like chick flicks and adventure stories :)
Till next week!
Evie :D
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Cancer
Blerg. This will be a depressing blog, I'm going to let you know that right now.
So last Friday I was diagnosed with Cancer, lymphoma to be semi exact. I could go into further detail but I don't want too. I actually don't want to write about it too much on the blog, just cause I don't feel comfortable sharing it with the Internet. I'll tell you that I am upset by it, but not scared because I can't be scared. I'm only 19 and I have a life still to live and if I get scared then I won't live it.
Today I went to my first doctors visit to learn about how my treatment will be. What was the worst is that this part of the hospital is only for cancer patients, so it really hit home. That this is now my reality. That I have cancer and I have to fight it. What sucks though is that there were only 2 other people that I saw around my age. So everyone gives you sad eyes, like awww you're so young this isn't for you. Or they give you evil eyes when you don't stand up for the helper of a lady with a cane, because they think my mom is the one with cancer.
Anyways Lee, to answer your question, like both of you I tell a lot of people a lot of things. I'm not one to keep too much stuff to my self, even though I do have many secrets that I don't share. Anyways I talk to my Mom and Dad. I talk to a bunch of friends. I dunno I have a lot of best friends, all of whom were the firsts to know about the potential cancer, and now official cancer. Its just I have friends from so many parts of my life and so I share a lot with them. So yeah.
The hardest part for me really right now is that I won't be able to return to camp, cause there's no air conditioning and little children with germs. My camp has been the place I spent my week days for 9 years, and this was meant to be my tenth. Something I was so excited to reach, not to mention I got a promotion and have so many friends. I dunno its currently what I'm most upset about.
Ok. Thats it. Going to nap.
Miah
So last Friday I was diagnosed with Cancer, lymphoma to be semi exact. I could go into further detail but I don't want too. I actually don't want to write about it too much on the blog, just cause I don't feel comfortable sharing it with the Internet. I'll tell you that I am upset by it, but not scared because I can't be scared. I'm only 19 and I have a life still to live and if I get scared then I won't live it.
Today I went to my first doctors visit to learn about how my treatment will be. What was the worst is that this part of the hospital is only for cancer patients, so it really hit home. That this is now my reality. That I have cancer and I have to fight it. What sucks though is that there were only 2 other people that I saw around my age. So everyone gives you sad eyes, like awww you're so young this isn't for you. Or they give you evil eyes when you don't stand up for the helper of a lady with a cane, because they think my mom is the one with cancer.
Anyways Lee, to answer your question, like both of you I tell a lot of people a lot of things. I'm not one to keep too much stuff to my self, even though I do have many secrets that I don't share. Anyways I talk to my Mom and Dad. I talk to a bunch of friends. I dunno I have a lot of best friends, all of whom were the firsts to know about the potential cancer, and now official cancer. Its just I have friends from so many parts of my life and so I share a lot with them. So yeah.
The hardest part for me really right now is that I won't be able to return to camp, cause there's no air conditioning and little children with germs. My camp has been the place I spent my week days for 9 years, and this was meant to be my tenth. Something I was so excited to reach, not to mention I got a promotion and have so many friends. I dunno its currently what I'm most upset about.
Ok. Thats it. Going to nap.
Miah
Eating breakfast quick time
Hey all, I didn't go on my computer yesterday, so all blogging was temporarily forgotten.
The answer to my friday question is similar to Rae's in that I don't have one person to whom I can tell everything. Instead, I have many people to whom I can tell many things! I can talk to my dad about a tonne of stuff – philosophical, academic, social, – and I do because I value his opinion greatly. And I can talk to my sister about awkward stuff sometimes, because we're pretty much the same person. My friends (that's you guys!!), I can talk to about anything under the sun, ranging from gossipy things to emotional things…
So that covers a lot of ground, between a lot of people. I suppose that of the above list, I probably talk to my dad about the most things that are on my mind. I mean he's been there with me since the beginning, and he knows a lot about life. And the universe, and everything.
Ta ta for now; I'm off to get my TB test read, and then volunteer at l'hôpital.
-Lee
Monday, June 13, 2011
Not a normal Monday.
I wish I could say that I’m gonna have another lazy Monday but I’m not. Last Thursday morning my Nana (my Mom’s Mom) died. Today is the visitation and tomorrow is the funeral. It was a shock when she died, she was not sick just old and it was her time. I am lucky though the Saturday before I went to see her. I had not seen her since Christmas time. The thing is that no matter how sad I am I know that she is infinitely more happy now because she is with her husband, my Papa, the love of her life (who died almost 7 years ago) and a person she dearly missed.
Lee to answer your question; there are a few people I can tell almost anything and ever thing to. Firstly Evie H. I have known her for pretty much forever and she is just one of those people that I know I will know forever and we will be annoying old ladies talking about “the good old day...”. I also can tell most things to my Mom not everything but most things. Lastly you ladies; Lee, Miah and Evie. We have done so much together and known each other so long that I tell you almost everything. Lee I don’t think I properly answered your question though because there is no one that I tell everything to there are a few people I tell lots too but no one knows everything but me.
Till next time,
Rae <3
Friday, June 10, 2011
Quick one before bed
Who is someone with whom you can talk about anything (and everything)?
Love you guys,
Lee
Thursday, June 9, 2011
BUFFY! :D
Wow this is the week of extremely short blogs!! I got 4 minutes to write this thing.
Well if I could be on any TV show it'd FO SHO be Buffy :P I mean in case you didn't already figure out how obsessive I am about that show...they're doing a marathon sorta thingy on MuchMusic and yea watch it every time its on :) Oh, and I would totally be in the first season...or maybe like the first, second or third. I feel like those were super awesome ones. NOT Season four cuz of stupid....hahah I've actually forgotten his name. Lee would probably know. You know that guy who is her college love interest? The military guy? Ya him. Didn't like him. He was too boring. I liked Angel :P And Spike....minus the creepy stalker factor.
WOAH! Gotta go people.
Well that was my answer and I'll be surprised if you guys didn't guess it!
Ttfn
<3 Evie
Well if I could be on any TV show it'd FO SHO be Buffy :P I mean in case you didn't already figure out how obsessive I am about that show...they're doing a marathon sorta thingy on MuchMusic and yea watch it every time its on :) Oh, and I would totally be in the first season...or maybe like the first, second or third. I feel like those were super awesome ones. NOT Season four cuz of stupid....hahah I've actually forgotten his name. Lee would probably know. You know that guy who is her college love interest? The military guy? Ya him. Didn't like him. He was too boring. I liked Angel :P And Spike....minus the creepy stalker factor.
WOAH! Gotta go people.
Well that was my answer and I'll be surprised if you guys didn't guess it!
Ttfn
<3 Evie
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Short
Ok so something really big is happening right now. And I don't feel like going into detail. So this blog will be very short.
As far as your question Rae, I would be on two shows. Firstly Glee just cause it's so awesome! And stuff. But I would also like to be a talk show host. I like celebs and celeb culture, and I dunno it's something that looks like fun.
Ok that's it.
Miah.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Eating Peanut M&Ms… yeaaa!
Hey all, hope everything's going well. Especially you Miah!
I am a horrible actress and have promised myself that I will never ever act in anything again. This is a decision made after countless school video projects. No more!
But setting aside that fact… If I were to go onto any TV show, I would want to make it count. Crazy special effects, intense heartbreaking storyline, stunts, make-up… So it would have to be a show where there are supernatural elements, for the "crazy special effects" aspect. And I love Doctor Who, so maybe that would be a good show to go onto? Ya… let's go with Doctor Who.
Aside from that, I've always wanted to be a mutant in an X-men movie. I know that's not a TV show, but wouldn't that be so cool? They would tell you what your unique ability is, and that character would be yours forever! Plus you would probably get some really crazy special effects and/or make-up going.
In other news, I've been going to bed super late. I think tonight I will aim for something absurd like midnight or 1 am. Absurd!!
See you guys,
Lee
Monday, June 6, 2011
It was HOT out today!
Just got back from Harry Potter #2... no matter how many times I see it there are still parts that make me jump! As for the rest of my day I went downtown with my brother and a friend. We just hung out and tried to get my brother a pair of shoes but he did not find anything he liked.
As for my question; anyone that knows me would know the answer to this question. I would be on Degrassi the Next Generation. I must be specific... I would be on the show before or during season 4. There are many reasons why but mainly because the best of the show was during or before that time. Anyway I am being summoned to help my mom with something.
Till next time,
Rae <3
Friday, June 3, 2011
I’m full...
I just got back from dinner and my family is waiting for me to watch a bit of TV so I will make this quick.
Question: If you could be on any television show past or present which show would you be on and why?
(Note: you are not taking the roll of someone else you are a new character to the show)
Till next time,
Rae <3
Double-take for Daniel Day-Lewis :P
Sooooooo i just ate a chocolate covered oreo, OMG amazing. I mean it sounds stupid right? Why do you need to put chocolate around and oreo when the cookies are already chocolate? To people who take up this argument I say, 'Havee you ever bitten into deliciously creamy chocolate coating a crisp crunchie oreo filled with soft, sugery icing?' and I guarantee you the answer is no. They're fantastic, it's true. Though if you were to propose the idea to me yesterday you would have found me most skeptical :P
Right, it's friday and more importantly it's not MY friday. Sorry for the late post!!
Let me just say, before getting to the friday question that Harry Potter #1 was so much fun to see in theatres!! It was like going back in time with all the retro special effects :P yay movie marathons!!
Okay, having read each of your lovely and most interesting answers to the friday question, I realize that I'm having a hard time deciding who I think is a really really fantastic actor.....wait. I could definitely say Heath Ledger (not because he's hot, or Australian :P) because of his fantastic, though slightly disturbing, transformation into The Joker from The Dark Knight. When you look at his previous characters he was often in the role of love interest. I'm thinking specifically about the movie 10 Things I Hate About You (a 100% chick-flick), but even in these light, fluffy movies that, at first glance, seem to have no more depth than necessary to placate a teen girl he manages to give the character a bit of dimension and make his reactions and actions way more believable than I think a lot of actors could have done with the same character and lines.
But THEN, woah nelly he goes full throttle into a character that kills people with no mercy, wears scary makeup, definitely does NOT have an Australian accent...I mean this guy is amazing he goes from one extreme to another leaving no trace of the other character, not.one.trace. I swear I had goosebumps every time he came on screen when I went to go see Dark Knight in theaters, he was seriously scary.
SO. Having said that, there ARE some other actors that I am totally impressed with that I'd like to just mention; Daniel Day-Lewis, basically because I watched this movie once (A Room With A View - loved it!) and during the opening credits I saw his name and was like 'OMG he's IN this? That's hilarious!' and then when he actually showed up on screen I totally didn't recognize him EVEN though I not only knew he was going to be in this film but I've seen him in other stuff too, it wasn't until afterward when I wanted to show my brother the song in the opening credits that I saw his name again and was like 'Wtf? He was Cecil?? Since when!?'; Katherine Hepburn, she's just so strong and her acting always feels so natural, even during dramatic scenes and stuff; Javier Bardem, because I feel like people don't know who he is even though he's won awards and stuff, I really like his acting, seriously he went from playing a hit-man-serial-killer guy using a captive bolt pistol to kill people to playing the Spanish lover for like three women in Woody Allen's Vicky Cristina Barcelona, it's craziness; and despite the risk of being called lame and pathetic for the rest of my life Amanda Bynes-WAIT! Before you start yelling at your computer screen let me specify that it's her comedic acting that's got me so impressed, I just like that she makes me laugh so much AND she's a girl (actresses represent!) AND she managed to get for reals famous for it. She doesn't just run around doing weird stuff and putting on weird voices...well okay she does, but it's not that easy! It has to be funny, she has to time stuff just right and she has to be okay with making herself look utterly ridiculous. Her dramatic acting is just so-so in my opinion, it's the comedic acting that so awesome :D She makes me laugh!
K so I went and looked up a few lists of 'Best actors ever' to get a feel for what other people thought and the only actress within the first like 20 is Meryl Streep! Either that saying that women have to do twice as much work as men to get half as much recognition is true or there are not too many actresses who are very talented. Or maybe there aren't very many good roles for women that showcase their talents...just too many that showcase their breasts - Ha! that was a good one eh? :P *Ahem, In any case I totally agree with Miah, that Meryl Streep is completely amazing when it comes to acting. When I think about what makes an actor good the first thing that comes to mind is 'Do I believe them? Do they make me believe that this person is real and do they make sense?' I mean people are interesting so when I watch a movie I want to find the characters interesting, but the actor first has to make me believe. Ha! That sounded like a commercial for something didn't it? And Maryl Streep MAKES YOU BELIEVE. She's phenomenal.
Wow, think I've rambled enough?
Alrighty friends it's time for me to sign off!
Till next time,
Evie :D
Ps. I definitely agree with Lee and Rae about Gary Oldman and Tom Hanks :) They're awesome to the max!
Right, it's friday and more importantly it's not MY friday. Sorry for the late post!!
Let me just say, before getting to the friday question that Harry Potter #1 was so much fun to see in theatres!! It was like going back in time with all the retro special effects :P yay movie marathons!!
Okay, having read each of your lovely and most interesting answers to the friday question, I realize that I'm having a hard time deciding who I think is a really really fantastic actor.....wait. I could definitely say Heath Ledger (not because he's hot, or Australian :P) because of his fantastic, though slightly disturbing, transformation into The Joker from The Dark Knight. When you look at his previous characters he was often in the role of love interest. I'm thinking specifically about the movie 10 Things I Hate About You (a 100% chick-flick), but even in these light, fluffy movies that, at first glance, seem to have no more depth than necessary to placate a teen girl he manages to give the character a bit of dimension and make his reactions and actions way more believable than I think a lot of actors could have done with the same character and lines.
But THEN, woah nelly he goes full throttle into a character that kills people with no mercy, wears scary makeup, definitely does NOT have an Australian accent...I mean this guy is amazing he goes from one extreme to another leaving no trace of the other character, not.one.trace. I swear I had goosebumps every time he came on screen when I went to go see Dark Knight in theaters, he was seriously scary.
SO. Having said that, there ARE some other actors that I am totally impressed with that I'd like to just mention; Daniel Day-Lewis, basically because I watched this movie once (A Room With A View - loved it!) and during the opening credits I saw his name and was like 'OMG he's IN this? That's hilarious!' and then when he actually showed up on screen I totally didn't recognize him EVEN though I not only knew he was going to be in this film but I've seen him in other stuff too, it wasn't until afterward when I wanted to show my brother the song in the opening credits that I saw his name again and was like 'Wtf? He was Cecil?? Since when!?'; Katherine Hepburn, she's just so strong and her acting always feels so natural, even during dramatic scenes and stuff; Javier Bardem, because I feel like people don't know who he is even though he's won awards and stuff, I really like his acting, seriously he went from playing a hit-man-serial-killer guy using a captive bolt pistol to kill people to playing the Spanish lover for like three women in Woody Allen's Vicky Cristina Barcelona, it's craziness; and despite the risk of being called lame and pathetic for the rest of my life Amanda Bynes-WAIT! Before you start yelling at your computer screen let me specify that it's her comedic acting that's got me so impressed, I just like that she makes me laugh so much AND she's a girl (actresses represent!) AND she managed to get for reals famous for it. She doesn't just run around doing weird stuff and putting on weird voices...well okay she does, but it's not that easy! It has to be funny, she has to time stuff just right and she has to be okay with making herself look utterly ridiculous. Her dramatic acting is just so-so in my opinion, it's the comedic acting that so awesome :D She makes me laugh!
K so I went and looked up a few lists of 'Best actors ever' to get a feel for what other people thought and the only actress within the first like 20 is Meryl Streep! Either that saying that women have to do twice as much work as men to get half as much recognition is true or there are not too many actresses who are very talented. Or maybe there aren't very many good roles for women that showcase their talents...just too many that showcase their breasts - Ha! that was a good one eh? :P *Ahem, In any case I totally agree with Miah, that Meryl Streep is completely amazing when it comes to acting. When I think about what makes an actor good the first thing that comes to mind is 'Do I believe them? Do they make me believe that this person is real and do they make sense?' I mean people are interesting so when I watch a movie I want to find the characters interesting, but the actor first has to make me believe. Ha! That sounded like a commercial for something didn't it? And Maryl Streep MAKES YOU BELIEVE. She's phenomenal.
Wow, think I've rambled enough?
Alrighty friends it's time for me to sign off!
Till next time,
Evie :D
Ps. I definitely agree with Lee and Rae about Gary Oldman and Tom Hanks :) They're awesome to the max!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Nine Year Old Miah
I had something really fantastic to blog about... like it was a really good idea. But I've totally forgot--- oh wait. Never mind I remember.
This isn't it I'm just gonna tell y'all about stuff. OK so for the past little while I've had an obnoxious cough... OK never mind this will get gross. What else? Oh yes, tomorrow is Camp Orientation. So basically I show up, get the staff manual, order my staff shirts, and say hi to all of my friends. I am really excited, but kinda nervous cause its the first time that I'm going with my brother (he's a newbie this year) and I dunno kinda weird. What else? Oh I'm visiting the good old high school tomorrow, I just wanna say hi to a couple of teachers and well one only teaches on certain days so tomorrow is the last chance I've got. I'm excited because the teachers I plan on saying hello to, I do weirdly miss. Which proves btw, that a subject is a subject, and it all matters on the teacher to make it amazing.
OK so like Rae said the other day we went to see Harry Potter and the Philosopher Stone on Monday, and it got me thinking about where I was 10 years ago. And well firstly I was nine and that's a huge difference between nine and nineteen. But at this time I was living in New York, and the world was prior 9/11. So even that is a huge change in myself and the world. But then I think about when the movie was released, November 2001. After 9/11 and as a child I'm pretty sure that was the moment (9/11) that I lost the whole "the world is a magical place" feel, which I'm sure happened to many children who could remotely grasp the concept of terror. And yet Harry Potter was released to record breaking numbers if I'm not mistaken being the number 2 movie of all time after Titanic (currently number 8 movie of all time.) But for me I missed out on seeing the first film because I heard one kid say they "wanted to read the books first" and I liked that idea. Instead I saw a guy commit suicide. Another loss of a "magical world," but yet we all fell into the world of Harry Potter, I watched the movie for the first time at home I believe June/July 2002 and from that moment on I was hooked. I guess the way in which I can sum up 9 year old me, was my maturity level, because after 9/11 I organized that my Toronto class would be pen-pals with my New York class, because I knew they needed love.
Anyway time for a segway!
As REL know I've been doing an Oscar Marathon, in which I try to watch every film that has ever won and Oscar for Best Picture. So you think this would make me somewhat of a movie buff, but I've come to realize that I don't really pay that much attention to details of film. Or rather I pay attention to costume and set... like I analyze those things (don't get me started on costume design for avatar!) I dunno if I enjoy a movie I get entranced. I enjoy it, and I just watch. Were as if I don't enjoy the movie I analyze it. Make sense? Basically I get sucked into the experience of watching a film, television show, and theatre. So as far as the best actor ever... I mean besides Theatre/ Musical Theatre actors (especially Musical Theatre, you try being able to sing, dance and act!) I'd have to go with Meryl Streep. She's such a camelion (sp?) that its actually ridiculous! I mean have you seen the Devil Wears Prada, Mamma Mia, Julie and Julia? I mean this woman has been nominated for an Oscar 16 times! So yeah Meryl Streep. My choice.
OK seeing as its 11:57 I think it about time to wrap this mother up! (whats that from?)
Miah
P.S. I watched an American in Paris last night and two things slightly blew my mind firstly her dancing and flexibility. Second the whistling (1:44ish mark) cause I've heard that like a gazillion times!!!
P.P.S 45 DAYS UNTIL THE END!!!! :(
This isn't it I'm just gonna tell y'all about stuff. OK so for the past little while I've had an obnoxious cough... OK never mind this will get gross. What else? Oh yes, tomorrow is Camp Orientation. So basically I show up, get the staff manual, order my staff shirts, and say hi to all of my friends. I am really excited, but kinda nervous cause its the first time that I'm going with my brother (he's a newbie this year) and I dunno kinda weird. What else? Oh I'm visiting the good old high school tomorrow, I just wanna say hi to a couple of teachers and well one only teaches on certain days so tomorrow is the last chance I've got. I'm excited because the teachers I plan on saying hello to, I do weirdly miss. Which proves btw, that a subject is a subject, and it all matters on the teacher to make it amazing.
OK so like Rae said the other day we went to see Harry Potter and the Philosopher Stone on Monday, and it got me thinking about where I was 10 years ago. And well firstly I was nine and that's a huge difference between nine and nineteen. But at this time I was living in New York, and the world was prior 9/11. So even that is a huge change in myself and the world. But then I think about when the movie was released, November 2001. After 9/11 and as a child I'm pretty sure that was the moment (9/11) that I lost the whole "the world is a magical place" feel, which I'm sure happened to many children who could remotely grasp the concept of terror. And yet Harry Potter was released to record breaking numbers if I'm not mistaken being the number 2 movie of all time after Titanic (currently number 8 movie of all time.) But for me I missed out on seeing the first film because I heard one kid say they "wanted to read the books first" and I liked that idea. Instead I saw a guy commit suicide. Another loss of a "magical world," but yet we all fell into the world of Harry Potter, I watched the movie for the first time at home I believe June/July 2002 and from that moment on I was hooked. I guess the way in which I can sum up 9 year old me, was my maturity level, because after 9/11 I organized that my Toronto class would be pen-pals with my New York class, because I knew they needed love.
Anyway time for a segway!
As REL know I've been doing an Oscar Marathon, in which I try to watch every film that has ever won and Oscar for Best Picture. So you think this would make me somewhat of a movie buff, but I've come to realize that I don't really pay that much attention to details of film. Or rather I pay attention to costume and set... like I analyze those things (don't get me started on costume design for avatar!) I dunno if I enjoy a movie I get entranced. I enjoy it, and I just watch. Were as if I don't enjoy the movie I analyze it. Make sense? Basically I get sucked into the experience of watching a film, television show, and theatre. So as far as the best actor ever... I mean besides Theatre/ Musical Theatre actors (especially Musical Theatre, you try being able to sing, dance and act!) I'd have to go with Meryl Streep. She's such a camelion (sp?) that its actually ridiculous! I mean have you seen the Devil Wears Prada, Mamma Mia, Julie and Julia? I mean this woman has been nominated for an Oscar 16 times! So yeah Meryl Streep. My choice.
OK seeing as its 11:57 I think it about time to wrap this mother up! (whats that from?)
Miah
P.S. I watched an American in Paris last night and two things slightly blew my mind firstly her dancing and flexibility. Second the whistling (1:44ish mark) cause I've heard that like a gazillion times!!!
P.P.S 45 DAYS UNTIL THE END!!!! :(
Happy Belated Post, Post!!
Helloo what's up?
Today I went to the mall and got my eyebrows shaped (waxed). Ouch!! But it really didn't hurt that much. What was worse was how red it got. It was pretty embarrassing to walk around with bright red skin around my newly-shaped eyebrows, so I went home with my head hung low haha. Why the shaping? I'm going to prom! (also my eyebrows were in need of some maintenance that I was unwilling to perform myself.)
… sorry what?
I'm going to prom! An old friend didn't have anyone to go with, so imma go to support him and wear a pwetty dress. Thinking that on the day of, I'll get my nails done and… hair done? Ya why not. Any opportunity to dress to the nines :D
___
Evie, I think that Gary Oldman is an amazing actor - a real chameleon. He can transform himself completely to fit a role. Remember how creepy and then how awesome he was in HP3 as Sirius Black? And he was pretty good as Commissioner Gordon in the new Batman movies too. Plus his old roles, like Beethoven and Dracula (freaky!!). The man has talent, and is serious about his craft. Dan Rad and the other kiddies are lucky to have worked so closely with him, and hopefully they picked up a few of his tricks.
-Lee
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