Cancer

Blerg. This will be a depressing blog, I'm going to let you know that right now.
So last Friday I was diagnosed with Cancer, lymphoma to be semi exact. I could go into further detail but I don't want too. I actually don't want to write about it too much on the blog, just cause I don't feel comfortable sharing it with the Internet. I'll tell you that I am upset by it, but not scared because I can't be scared. I'm only 19 and I have a life still to live and if I get scared then I won't live it.
Today I went to my first doctors visit to learn about how my treatment will be. What was the worst is that this part of the hospital is only for cancer patients, so it really hit home. That this is now my reality. That I have cancer and I have to fight it. What sucks though is that there were only 2 other people that I saw around my age. So everyone gives you sad eyes, like awww you're so young this isn't for you. Or they give you evil eyes when you don't stand up for the helper of a lady with a cane, because they think my mom is the one with cancer.
Anyways Lee, to answer your question, like both of you I tell a lot of people a lot of things. I'm not one to keep too much stuff to my self, even though I do have many secrets that I don't share. Anyways I talk to my Mom and Dad. I talk to a bunch of friends. I dunno I have a lot of best friends, all of whom were the firsts to know about the potential cancer, and now official cancer. Its just I have friends from so many parts of my life and so I share a lot with them. So yeah.
The hardest part for me really right now is that I won't be able to return to camp, cause there's no air conditioning and little children with germs. My camp has been the place I spent my week days for 9 years, and this was meant to be my tenth. Something I was so excited to reach, not to mention I got a promotion and have so many friends. I dunno its currently what I'm most upset about.
Ok. Thats it. Going to nap.
Miah