Siblings

Ugh yesterday I made one of my favourite meals for dinner and there was a lot of garlic in it. Anyway I'm still digesting it. Which sucks. But I'm getting and feeling better as the moments go on so alls good.
Anyway right now I'm just waiting to start stuff and other then that struggling with missing camp. Right now all of my friends are at pre camp (when the staff get trained) and well even though its supper boring and dull I'd much rather be there right now. Its really for me the hardest thing, not being at camp. For many reasons, I was so looking forward to it because well it was supposed to be my 10th summer, I got a promotion, and well last year I was so confident that I knew that this year would be awesome too. I dunno. Camp is something I look forward to all year, and having it just taken away has been hard.
I think the reason that I do like camp so much is that I am a very motherly person by nature, like I've always looked out for people younger then me. Which could do with the fact that I am an older sister, that it may just be that way. Like I have to look out for my younger brother, but the thing is that I don't have to. I want too. Especially now that he's working at camp and all the crap I've been going through. I just don't want people harassing him. But that being said my brother and I are really close, we've always been close. I mean as close as a brother/ sister relationship can be. Like walking down the street we usually play with each others hands, and well now sometimes he even helps me walk. So I think siblings are a good thing and having one is awesome! Even the moments when I do want to kill him. I dunno its just nice knowing that there's someone out there who I can just hang out with. Like it was my brother's idea to watch the Godfather trilogy so I can cross them off my Oscar List. But like those movies aren't ones I want to watch by myself. So he chose to watch them with me. But then I think siblings relationships really rely on their own dynamic. Cause many of my cousins hate/ hated (but have grown closer) their siblings. Anyway the whole is it best to be the oldest shiz, I think there are moments when my parents freak about certain things because I am the oldest. But I think there's also the issue that I'm female, so at night my parents are really nervous. I personally blame their love of Law and Order. So I dunno. But its not like my parents pressure me to do things at a certain time, like they kinda gave up on making me get my drivers licence... and well getting a second job isn't cause of my age but because I need the cash. (Due to recent events they have also stopped with that.) So yeah... I dunno. I think I explained my views on being an elder sibling. I mean it would be nice to be younger or middle just to have the advice and stuff, but I have older cousins who do that for me. So I don't feel like I'm missing out.
Yeah long blog!
Miah