Reading and Camp

So... whats happened in the last week?
Well, my two best friends at camp both informed me that this summer they won't be returning this summer, which has put me in a kind of slump. Cause well I'm not the most social person ever, and its nice not having to worry about making friends. I do have friends at camp, but no one I am as close to as those two girls. I dunno just all of this camp stuff has made me think about not so social me. I did have a boy friend, over a year ago. And no I wasn't in love with him ever, I was... I dunno happy. I think its because of the confidence that comes with a relationship, the question of attractiveness and likability disappear, you have someone, you've found someone. So I as of late question if the crushes I have, are for boys whom I like or for the feeling I get from a relationship. Make sense?
It also doesn't help that I met my ex at camp, so I have some anxiety about his possibility of being back there again. Especially if I'm a councilor again and he's swim staff, cause with my luck one of my kids will be scared shitless to swim with him so I'll (being the motherly- according to Sloan- person that I am) offer to swim with them too. Only to be stuck being with his swim group for the rest of the freakin' summer. The good news is the other guy that I was worried about coming back, rumor has it is in no way returning! Yahoo!
So yeah... that's all that's been on my mind recently.
Oh wait except I have an AWKWARD story.
OK so Thursdays I have a really long break between classes. So last Thursday I hung out in the work area with a girl from one of my classes. And well a bunch of guys show up... one guy was from my Thursday afternoon class, and well I kinda flirted with him. But like I didn't mean too! I was biting my lip, and stuff and I guess it came across as being flirtatious cause that girl was going to text me something that she didn't want him to see. So yeah... 4 hours of me being an idiot. Oh, he may also be anti-Semitic so no way is there a future to this. (He willingly drew a swastika on a project... it was about himself in the section about Nazi zombies... yeah... I dunno.)
Anyways I'm not feeling very bloggy so gonna answer the tradition question.
As far as traditions go, the only ones (in my immediate family) I can think of are going out for dinner for someones birthday. It used to be that the birthday person got to pick, but now the others surprise them. Oh and the other tradition is our annual summer reading contest. We've been doing it for nearly 8 years. What we do is keep track of the number of pages as points, +10 points for completion of every book we read during the summer. It started as a way to get my brother and I reading and now is pretty serious. I've only ever won once, usually my mom wins. But even that tradition has changed, and probably will change this year too. Cause it changed when my brother went through a series during March Break, and as a way to encourage the reading my parents started the contest in March. It also changed from its original form, when we only counted books, since my brother and I had books that average 100 pages we would finish twice as many books as my parents. This year I suspect it'll change because I'm in University and my summer starts mid April. So yeah. I have traditions, but they are constantly changing and morphing as my brother and I grow. I guess even camp is a tradition, I mean it will be my 10th summer.
OK thats it.
Miah