Baby B.

So... sometimes I find it really creepy how stuff just happens on Wednesdays. Like major stuff... or not so major. I can't really remember at the moment cause I'm super excited since MY COUSIN HAD A BABY!!! The one I blogged about here (yahoo baby blog!) and like I said in that blog this is the first time a baby cousin has been born who I'm actually related too. The cousin that I refer to often (who's having her baby next week) is actually a family-friend but the relationship is so close we refer to each other as cousins. So like I dunno it hit me its my cousin's kid. Like my family tree has a new generation. Woah. Mind boggaling. Also a little weird cause I never saw my cousin pregnant, they live in a different city and were always busy at friends weddings when we would visit the last nine months. So yeah OMG BABY. A baby girl which I totally guessed! Unfortunately I didn't blog about this particular baby, she does prove my point in this one here (yahoo baby another blog!). Because no joke the second they announced she was ... i say they because my biological cousin is the husband and so I hear news from him... pregnant I said its gonna be a girl. That means the last four babies in my life I have guessed correctly. So I don't know her name yet, or else today's blog would be called by her name but these cousins are religious and won't announce it for a few days or weeks... yeah I don't know. So instead I just want to say I'm very excited for my new Baby B. and can not wait for Baby L. next week! (She's having a c-section, I'm not that psychic. )

Any who so I am currently staying at my aunt and uncle's house

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

So I wrote up to what you read 3 hours ago (its 111:15 pm now) and then went to post and blogger said the site was down and I lost all of what I wrote (even though it said it was saved) from this point forward... which was a lot more then up there. So if this is my first late post so not my fault.

OK so where was I oh yes. I'm at my aunt and uncles house because my family is moving houses tomorrow and since my immune system is low being around all the dust and stuff isn't good. So I'm on a slight mini vacation, I say this because my aunt and uncle live in a suburb of Toronto and I don't have any way of getting around myself. Like everyone drives here, today we went to the drug store, I would've walked. We did go somewhere else afterwards, but that was an after thought. And anyways I just feel very isolated up here. But I have until Friday, and then I move into my new home!

OK so my first crush, well I'm going to give you my first two and then explain something afterwards. Now as a child I was very imaginative and fantasized a lot, I also watched shows I probably shouldn't have and had a lot of older girl cousins. Keep this in mind when you read the following. (Side note, very fitting that I'm blogging from where I'm blogging about these crushes because they both took place in the elementary school around the corner from my aunts house.) My first crush, if I were to call it that was when I was 5 in kinder garden on a boy named E. E was a boy, that's the bases of the crush. My second crush was in grade 2 on a boy named M. (omg so weird my initials M.E. aaah ok) M. was the boy all the girls of 7/8 years of age liked and he knew it. Also I was friends with him, every Friday I would go to my best friends house for a play date and since he was her neighbour her mom/nanny would walk him home too. He was nice and cool and yeah good kid, good first crush. He is actually who I consider to be my actual first crush because I remember wanting to get his attention and feeling butterflies and all of the emotions one feels when crushing. Unlike my other first crush I think that was me just being an imaginative child who created a story like she saw on TV and heard from cousins. The crush only lasted a year though since I moved to New York in grade 3, and well you forget about crushes... well not really... But yes, M was my first crush while E was just fantasy. Which is something I do very often confuse the two, crushing and fantasy land. I dunno I'm a hopeless romantic so I try to make sure I actually crush on a guy and don't just fantasize about a single aspect of them... make sense?

Ok thats it

Miah