A Few Things

Rae, I'm sad to see you go and wish you had mentioned this to us prior to posting it. With that being said like Lee I do understand why and yeah, I think she said everything I would've said. You know the whole, not gonna force you to blog and what not.

I mean this blog was always meant to be a way to stay in touch so at sometimes it does feel like a chore when you have a gazillion other things on your plate and blogging is the last thing on your mind, but I find it very relaxing and therapeutic. I do have to admit writing is something I love to do, so much so I'm constantly dreaming up new stories and characters. But I get that writing isn't for everyone. I love blogging weekly, I think it really has helped me like Lee said find my written "voice," but more importantly my spelling. Its never been my strong suet, but no joke because of this blog I've grown so much in that department. You should see how fewer spelling mistakes I have now compared to when we started.

Anyway.

A few things.

First I told an entire class that I have cancer. We were discussing whether or not design has any impact on social change, and I said yes. With out the design of the x-ray machine (specifically how you take chest x-rays now) I would be in a much worse situation right now, possibly dead. It was really scary bringing this up to my class, but I wanted too. It made a good point and really helped people in my class realize that design isn't all about making pretty things. My teacher afterwords told me he was proud of me for saying that and that I was very courageous.

Second bit of news. Tomorrow I have my fifth round of six chemo sessions. I can honestly say I am not looking forward to it. I'm sick of them and just want them to be done with, if my sixth could be next week I'd be very pleased. But whats weirder is that it's Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year. And for the first time in my memory I am not going to Shule, or the second night dinner. I celebrated tonight with my family, but that's it. That was my Rosh Hashanah. Very strange. I have come to terms that I am not a religious person, but a person who loves tradition (though when traditions end or change I do adapt.) So going to shule, getting shule clothes, trying to entertain myself in shule, checking out the boys, all of it was apart of my tradition and it just feels so empty without it. I am also not going to shule for Yom Kippur, because of the fear of germs and my immune system is at it weakest a week after chemo. So my holiday season really feels empty and incomplete. But like all of the other shit in my life I'll get through it and move on.

Ok I need to go to sleep, sorry to see you go Rae.

Miah