Today I felt like just musing about what is on my mind I hope you enjoy it.
Friends
Being friends is complicated. You have to balance your life with other peoples’ lives and sometimes they just don’t balance right and one person falls off the scale. There are valleys and mountains in friendships and the mountains sometimes are just as hard as valleys. Now that we are out of high school and living our own lives it is harder to keep that balance. Before you saw a lot of your friends almost every day and now you actually have to schedule time for one another. Not that scheduling is a bad thing but it is hard to make a lot of peoples’ schedules work all at once. What I am trying to say is that friendship is hard thing to keep up no matter where you are or who you are. If I have not meet with anyone’s idea of friendship on my side I whole heartedly apologize for my mistake.
Boys
They are a complicated and different brand of human. I have never had a boyfriend and the two times I almost had one they ended breaking my heart and leaving with a piece of it. So that being said I have a latent distrust with them. I am almost scared to attempt to open myself to them and try to have a romantic relationship because I have this [sub]conscious fear that the same thing will happen.
On a different note I don’t much look at male celebrities and say that I love him or I will marry him and I never really have. I think I do this because I know that it will never happen (sorry Miah) and I don’t want to invest my time and energy into something that will never be real. In that respect I am a realist.
Sleep
My three week holiday at home was nice I really did just relax and chill out at home with my family but not having a reason to get up a cretin time really can screw with your sleep habits. I managed to get myself into this weird sleep habit of going to bed around 3am and then not get up until about noon. It was very weird and totally annoying to my Mom because it was not just me doing it; it was also my dad and brother. My mom is not a night person she is morning person so she was up for hours alone because we were all sleeping.
YouTube
I don’t know if I have every said this but I am unnaturally obsessed with YouTube. When I was at home for some reason I decided not to watch any of my videos and so yesterday when I got back to school I unpacked and sat down and watched like 5 or 6 hours of YouTube videos but that was not all of it I still have more to watch today and that should be at least 2 hours.
Rae on this blog
I want to apologize for my last few posts; I was at home and was not in the blogging mood but I will be better I promise!
Till next time,
Rae <3
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